People struggle to raise minimum wages. In South Korea, minimum wage per
hour in 2014 is 5,210 won ($5.01). This wage is slowly increasing every year. Minimum
rages in the U.S. differ by each state. The lowest one is $5.15 in Wyoming, and
the highest one is $9.50 in D.C. It is easy to set the range of minimum, but it
would be hard to define the maximum. Probably, the maximum can stop at score
100 or speed limit 65 miles, but in the real world, it can also extend
endlessly.
The reason why I bring up a topic of minimum and maximum is that I was
somewhat disappointed at the minimum standards of behavior. I do requirement
for class, fellowship, human relations, and my daily life. Obviously, it is
really hard to do plus alpha. Nobody asks me to do something extra. However, in
a flood of information, I am always agonizing what my minimum requirements are.
For the class, there are hundreds of pages for references in the online
library. Honestly, I suspect that instructors really expect students to read
all of them. I have no time, no passion, and no necessity to look at them. Because
reading all references do not guarantee grade A. Just focusing on small portion
of to-do-list, which is requirement, all day long will be good for my mental
health. As a courtesy, I downloaded all references and made each folder to classify
into relevant lectures. It takes so long time to only complete downloading and
assorting them. I glanced at them quickly by scrolling up and down, easily get
bored, and then, I became frustrated. I do not know anything. Dissertations are
hard, and there are so many other related papers in the PubMed. What should I
certainly know and what do I not have to know? There is no finish line for
learning.
For the human relations, we are not always all equal. Colleagues or friends
can be equal relationship. When I feel people who I rely on do minimum of
minimum to me, I may have some disappointment. Some do not even minimum. It
would be my fault that I expect them to give me beyond the amount of minimum. When
I realize the person who is closed to me turns out to be an utter stranger, I
get lost in a maze again how I am satisfied with my human relations. No matter
how I feel comfortable to be with, the distance between person and person
always exist, and I do not also want to be interfered with somebody. Somehow, I
am sad to think that everything around me is just superficial. Approaching one
step closer could be meddling to you. Reversely, it is an unwelcome favor for
me if someone keeps inquiring of me about every detail. Friends in Sierra Leone
still call or text me to say hello. However, it is not that delighted to react
to their concern. Sometimes, I missed or did not want to answer because I am
serious in Tanzania. Then, they were upset and questioned me, “What happened? I am worrying about you.” “I
knew that you have already forgotten me.” “You ignored me again…” What are
all about? I already left Sierra Leone, and I cannot go back there. I am not
cold-hearted, but I do not feel urgent necessity to answer for “Hi” every time because the text
conversation would not be out of “Hi, I’m
fine, how are you? I miss you. Me too. What are you doing? Bye.” I do miss
them, but I do not want to express my yearning mind by continuing pointless
parrot-cry. Am I so ingrate? They were so nice to me, and I was undeserved to
receive all of those unmerited treatments. I do not know. I just feel so bad
whenever I talk to them in different country. I feel like I left them and only
myself escaped. Somehow, I just forget about everything about Sierra Leone. They
must have felt betrayed. Since I could not do even minimum to them, they also must
have felt they were ignored. It weighs so much upon my mind, but I cannot worry
straight all through how they would feel.
It is an exact a boomerang effect. I do not know how much that is related,
but it did backfire me. By when should I rely on someone? In the professional
world, can’t people provide any unofficial help if they have no obligation for
that? You do not care anymore if you complete the requirement? I must be a
greedy man who needs both moral and material help. As a OOO, any position,
there must be a certain responsibility. If there are 10 lists to complete as a
duty but I do not find 11th list by myself, I will be stagnant in
that level forever. I know people are busy enough to complete 10 lists. But I
am also busy. I do not know what I am doing, but anyway, I keep myself busy.
Finding and doing my plus alpha in earnest must be cumbersome, but it is the
only way to exceed my limit. Being content with my present situation will not
help anything; it would only give me a potbelly. Just like human tumble over hundreds
of time and finally overcome toddler stage, the efforts to break the wall of
current minimum have always to be done. Do I need solicit help from others?
Then, I have to do solicit help for others first. It does not have to be give
and take. Expecting receiving something later would not be good. It must be
hard to do something for others unsparingly, but I believe it is worth doing to
be a sincere person in the end. This boomerang will come back to me without
noticing, and I will be able to move one step forward.
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